Saturday, 21 May 2011

Time

When We were small.
we made friends.
lots lots of them

At the age of 10
We went for birthday parties.
Every months you will get an invitation.
How glad are we eating cakes and sweets.

As you grow up.
You went to their house for festival occasion.
excited and happy you take a bus together went one by one.
wearing nice clothes walking on a hot day.

Later
Some of them manage to study abroad.
you went to the airport to sent them away.
tears rolled down your cheek.
keep telling yourself that we will meet soon.

When your mid 20s
you went for their graduation day.
you give them flowers and happily take picture and think how fast time had past

3 Years later.
You meet up for your friends wedding.
talking bout how beautiful or handsome their bride/groom is


And later.. after some time.
you went to their funeral and you know at that time you dont have much time left either.
life is too short. make sure you make the best out of it.

Thursday, 19 May 2011

A Different Story


You Live A Different Live .

Everybody wakes up at 7am , you wake up at 12pm .
Everybody have their lunch at 1pm , you have your lunch at 3pm .
Everybody sleeps by 12am , you sleep at 4am .

Everybody face the traffic jam , you don’t , you drive smoothly .
Everybody ques up to buy a movie ticket . You don’t , nobody is there .
Everybody watch movies at night or during a weekend , the cinema is packed . You feel cold when you’re watching movie in a cinema , because the cinema is empty .
Everybody goes out on the weekend , you are busy on the weekend .
Everybody is busy on a weekday , you are free on a weekday .

Everybody make plans on the weekend , you asked them is it okay to make it a weekday .
Everybody hang out with everybody , you chill with a few friends .
Everybody goes to a pub at night , you say why not happy hour , its cheaper .
Everybody enjoy simple things in life , you are more complicated .
Everybody gotta go home early cause tomorrow , they have to work . You say work doesn’t start that early .

…Continue The Story .

Everybody wakes up at 7am , you wake up at 12pm . That is why you find waking up for a 7am flight is even more stressful than work pressure .
Everybody have their lunch at 1pm , you have your lunch at 3pm . That is why your lunch taste like shit , it is not fresh .
Everybody sleeps by 12am , you sleep at 4am . So what can you do after 12am ?

Everybody face the traffic jam , you don’t , you drive smoothly . That is why you are mentally weak , you can’t handle a simple traffic jam , it drives you crazy .
Everybody ques up to buy a movie ticket . You don’t , nobody is there . That is why you are impatient , you never que up before .
Everybody watch movies at night or during a weekend , the cinema is packed . You feel cold when you’re watching movie in a cinema , because the cinema is empty .That is why you don’t enjoy Ice lemon tea in movies , its make you uncomfortably cold .
Everybody goes out on the weekend , you are busy on the weekend . Maybe you missed out the fun .
Everybody is busy on a weekday , you are free on a weekday . So who is free today ? who are you going to call ?

Everybody make plans on the weekend , you asked them is it okay to make it a weekday . Nobody is free on a weekday .
Everybody hang out with everybody , you chill with a few friends . When was the last time you met some one new ?
Everybody goes to a pub at night , you say why not happy hour , its cheaper . Who wants to drink at 5pm ?
Everybody enjoy simple things in life , you are more complicated . It is harder to please you . Everybody gotta go home early cause tomorrow , they have to work . You say work doesn’t start that early . You can’t help to wonder , what its like living their lives . If everything changes within a day , are you strong enough to survive ?

Which one you rather be ?
There is no such thing as , his life is better than mine . Or my life is better than his .
You create your heaven on earth . Stop comparing .

Make the best , out of everything . today .

Sunday, 27 March 2011

You only live once.



i am.. currently suffering from extreme heat and desolated by millions of tiny bloodsuckers.
so i am kinda awake and its 450 am 

and just for a second a song actually made me feel like writing. :)



Some people think they're always right
Others are quiet and uptight
Others they seem so very nice, nice, nice, nice, nice, nice...(oh-ho)
Inside they might feel sad and wrong (oh no)

Twenty-nine different attributes
Only seven that you like (uh oh)
Twenty ways to see the world (oh-ho)
Twenty ways to start a fight (oh-ho)

everyone has their own reason to live in this world.
some live to see all the wicked bands all over the world.
some live to gain knowledge.
some just like to travel all over the world.
or probably just to have a family.
for some people. they wanted more than one.
But u cant defy that u only lived once and you dont know when does your life ends.

when i was a kid.id like to try new things.
and i was a very annoying kid(spoiled kid)
i forced my sister to teach me chess and started playing when i was 9
i still remember that time my dream is to be a professional chess player and i force every grownups to play with me to accomplished that

Later on computer games come into my life.
i started playing and i left chess.
after become addicted to that. i said to myself. i wan to be a hacker. a person who have high knowledge about technology. and started to waste countless hours on that.

and the list goes on for
bunch of things.

A few days before i attended A dota competition held at Icity Shah alam.
Confusion occurs made my team to be separated and me forming with some unknown people.
Turn out it wasnt so bad at all infact i think it made my weekend quite amazing
It all started arround 11pm and people whom had registered waited for the team bracket.
while waiting i was observing the place, the people, the scene.
Team from china brunei and singapore too made into the competition due to the cash pool of 15k
while observing. i can see the well known player gets the attention. people talked about them and some even took pictures.
i still remember a friend of mine asked "kau tak nak amek gambar ngan diorang ke?"
and me and some random teammate answered the same thing "haha tak nak ah. ko lek je nant orang minx amek gambar ngan aku" then we laugh. padahal baru kenal. Then i started to know more and more people among them. we talked. we laugh. 

After a lost facing top 32 team on a 1st round. we decide to hang out some more. went to some cyber cafes and have a friendly match with some tough luck team as well.
then after having some issues with the cafe and carving for food. we went to eat.
then masa lepak mamak. we were like known each other macam dah lama. 
then selamba drive pergi damansara damai at 1am and continue playing there for 5 more hours.
laughter was in the air and i didnt feel tired at all.
and i still cant believe i only known them for 10 hours.
some of them even come to kl all the way from terengganu just for the game. so i can barely see them again.
it was quite sad not knowing when i can meet them again. But people always leave. :(
i went back around 6am not knowing how to drive back and in the car i started thinking


Probably its just a simple game.
a simple game i wasted every hours of my life
But if the game brings people together
Because of the game i discover various people.
then i guess its totally worth it

Then i realized the list i made before. things ive done.
each and every one of it. i met different people.
When i went to chess training camp for nationals i can see, how they see the world.
the list goes on and i actually learnt alot from the things i did before.
it actually made who i am now and i strongly believe it is a gift for me to become a better person.

Ace of spades is actually better than Jack of all trades.
i used to take things seriously on mastering some things i had.
soon  you will believe that
its not the thing that matters anymore.
its the people you met from all walks of life.


Life is too short to be miserable. And you only live once.
make sure u make the best out of everything :)
later
(oh masa tengah fikir dalam kereta. i actually made a wrong turn. pastu kena toll =.=. crap tol.)
till then
-sepet






Sunday, 27 February 2011

See One's Way.

its been awhile eversince my last writing.
guess i am too passionate on what i was doing while taking forgranted pretty much everything else.
Carelessly i didnt even realize things i have missed, have had to do and complication occurred along the way.
To be fair i cant point a finger. Some might understand, some dont. although i wish everyone could see the situation im having. dont worry im not complaining how miserable my life is in this post

anyway..
i just got back from home after resolving my demise
couple of hours after unpacking. Issues come one after another dispute the fact im trying to create a fresh start.
i feel like going home again. i feel like quiting.
after a while.. i noticed.. this is life. sometimes you feel like crap and everyone mistreated you. But theres more ahead. once you start working, have a family and i think these problem i can easily comprehend compared to what im going to face later on. well having those thoughts might not sweep all your agony. it does clear your mind a lil


by the way.
i just lost my acoustic performance and kinda in my state of despair.
its not because i lost but not be able to full perform what we have trained.
but yes. people dont really get it because they are not me.it took time for me to realize there are no reason to blame them either. it just complicate things. 


i believe.
everyone has their own perception on what is ahead of them and we cant exactly know whats on their mind.
because we all are not capable to see one's way. Avoiding such circumstances , humans are born with toleration. some might have it some are less. But from what i suffered. This could really gratify your matters.
Always have the thoughts people cant read your mind wont really help but it does feel delightful when you try to put your place in their situation and im sure they will understand you as well.
too err is human and to forgive is divine.

oh well point taken.
till then.
-sepet

Thursday, 13 January 2011

Just another weekend

It has been a very busy week
well at least for me. A lot of things need to be done and planned.
I can see how my week is merely different from my previous years
more responsibility less procrastination so on
But it does make yourself feel good after u manage to keep up with at most all of your plans

Anyway.. the week started with the college band thinggy
with the upcoming Feseni around 2 months time , we still havent select any song.
All of a sudden a week is given to set an arrangement for a song.
UM small dota competition also been held by the end of the week.
fully occupied by day and night, driving to and fro from 9th and 8th college

So, after semua dah settle. went back to my room seeing my roomates have slept
i decided to go listen to some instrumental songs while having my quite time and finding someone on facebook to have some light conversation.
For me , a quite time alone is all you need after a hectic day and this is when my other state of mind comes to life.

actually after sending my keyboardist back to her college just now
alone in the car while listening to radiohead mistylikemusic
i came to a traffic light and waiting for the green light
i saw the numbers on my speedometer
2456782
My small red car has been moving for such distance.
for 20 years now. how many miles more can it last?how long?
can we tell? no we cant
and i think that god is trying to remind me that
we cant tell when does death come for us either

imagine you know your car going to breakdown on the road
will u drive?
If  you know when your going to die
Life is very much meaningless after, right?
there is always a reason for something to happened
and sometime something is better left untold

i have a friend who suffered from cancer when i was in high school
when we hear bout cancer
only 1 thing comes to our mind
fatal.
well that is because its not we are not the one who suffer from it

when i see her face in the class
i can see she trying to hold on this one big hope to continue living in this world
but i know that her life is not the same anymore.
most of the people said that life isnt fair when bad things happened to them
but is it fair when you drive a beetle on road passing through people walking in the rain?

i just wish when my time comes
i have given something or someone things to be remembered
probably not e=mc^2 to create destruction maybe a tree so that everyone can keep on breathing
and prepared for the afterlife
 i am sure everyone does
insyaAllah and lets hope for the best for us

-until then
sepet.

Friday, 7 January 2011

Success' Paths

I always get inspired watching things as life goes on everyday
sometime i just smile and people thinks im crazy , but theres alot on my mind although i am crazy most of the time :3
This time im going to talk about britains got talent
2 years ago my sis showed me some random video from britains got talent
well heres the video
lets call this one Mr A
and the second one
Mr B

both video are dancers
both trying to win the competition
but they are doing it in different ways
similar to the people trying to create their success in life

Mr. A is very creative
he did something unexpected and the judges liked it
they risk their chances and the outcome is either Yes or No
they just have fun doing it while depend 50% on their luck

while Mr B is really willing to do anything to win the competition
he had strong perseverance
he worked very hard just to strike on this one opportunity to change his life


these 2 examples are just the mirror reflection of the success people now
some who manage to think outside the box can create their success path easily
like inventing something new to the world which other people didnt think of
they strike the opportunity with less effort and succeed
these people tend to have everything, they didnt have to study so hard in their younger days too. yes?
for example if you aim to be a doctor, you have to do well in all your exams starting from upsr till your Alvl
and spend 6 more years to get a medical degree
but is it worth it? life is about risk, failing and learning new things after. but if everything is certain just because you can study hard, wheres the interesting part of life?
no im not complaining how difficult life is and not offending those who wanted to be a doctor. i know the doctors demand are high too.why? According to mathematics it just follow the simple "if then" concept
if more sick people then more doctors needed. yes? implies that cure is better than prevention?
totally wrong indeed.



in comparison to life
we actually just repeating what mostly dead people did
we all want to be doctors engineers doing big business
yes even i am one of them
how many of us are passionate enough to chase their dream ignoring whatever is in their way
just like a person who invented the straw or the wheel chair?
just like the 2 indians creating something outstanding
who could expect micheal jackson and indian dance are perfect match?

when i used to play chess in high school
i notice that all of the players has the same particular moves
that are used by the grandmasters 100 years ago
yes the moves are great
but chess has exactly 1337^999 outcomes
one strange particular move from what he memorize can make a difference
same goes to life
when robert frost explain the road diverge into 2
i think that there are 1000 other roads that we didnt see
so many other choices in life
and we only choose the one road with footsteps just to be safe
didnt we?


both of these way creativity and perseverance can bring success in your life
but too many people had gone through their life by hardworking and the bar has been raised up to a point that is too high to achieve
so are you willing to risk it?


2 months ago i was inspired by one of my best friend favorite quote
"live your life to the fullest"
im not sure how am i going to do that. but lets start with creating something different in my life
and enjoying every second of it
because we never know what is ahead of us and that has made life is so interesting




until then
-sepet

Saturday, 1 January 2011

Time Flies

New year has just started and i still cant believe how fast time is moving.
if 5 years ago , 1st of january is the day i dislike the most. i have to return to school , started with 2hours craptalking principal and hoping my pendidikan islam and bahasa melayu is on the same day so i can ditch school on that day every week.

but 2011 is a totally a different start. come to think of it i have reach my early 20 which i still cant believe how fast i am growing. i am graduating in 4 years time and im going to work.
but when i look at myself in the mirror. i really doubt my inside is growing as well.
if i am given a chance to wish for something. it would me staying as a kid forever. Theres so many thing to worry about when you are a grownups. You cant really do things that you like without thinking about others and everyday you have to make a right decision to lead a decent life. haha yeah i am the kind of guy who can sit in the room and do a thing he likes for hours and hours, doing his ridiculous act anywhere or play rock kapak and rap music at the same time. i like living my life different from others. i dont really care what people think of my doings as long as i know im enjoying every second of it. But these thing changes when you grow older. You have to take care of yourself. you cant play dota for 4 hours and waiting for mother to call you for lunch.. and there will be time you will need to stand on your own to solve your own problem. i realize that i need to do something for a change.
Newton states that every action has it reaction. This law even applies to life.

In real life, there are more difficult obstacles rather than failing exams.and having good cgpa does not guarantee your perfect life ahead now. probably not in 2020 if world still exist. everything comes into account.Sometimes you only be given one chance and that one chance you need to strike in order to change your life.  So be stronger because its not the end of the world. and i have decided,2011 and onwards although my world is going to be full serious matter as i grow up. i am going to live it differently and i hope it will give me a new prospect of life.

For 2010 recap:
It has been a hell of a year and tragic too
its started like any other year , having high hopes to have a good life, be matured and become a better person.
but i dont think it worked though >_>.. anyway..
I am glad i chose pasum over utp considering how awesome awesome awesome pasum is.
choosing pasum also made me prove that i prefer life over money which i am totally happy about it.
i met quite alot of people like me there and some of them has change me to be a better person.
i rode ambulance twice due to really funny lab accidents which i am still laughing now.
i have become fatter due to less sport enrolling. 
i realise that undergraduates study is not as easy as i think and i am working on it.
i made new awesome friends and i have a roomate who look just like nobita.
(i lovee doraemon  when i was a kid i got 1-43!! tapi sekarang dah hilang) coincidence eh?
travel to other countries and realise how awesome malaysia is.
and yeah still no serious relationship although its on my 2010 wishlist HAHA
 2010 also been a hard year for me as well
i loss two of my best fren one died of cancer and the other died from accident.
sometime it made me realise how long i can still live in this world because theres still alot of things i still wanted to do. So many thoughts to dream off and So many wish to be granted. it really reminds me that i can go anytime.. but life goes on..
anyway 2011 is going to be an awesome year. im going to have my 1st official band performance.
And i am going to be a kick ass grownup.  ^_^